| BAD GIRL! |
[Jan. 22nd, 2008|08:32 pm] |
Yes, that's me. I need motivation. Please comment for support!
Mina |
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| Today really sucked... |
[Jan. 15th, 2008|09:54 pm] |
So the morning started out well, and I was pretty busy and overwhelmed at work.
Then I got hungry, did well by getting a salad with lite dressing, and took a few bites of french fries from my friends plate. But not too drastically. But still, I shouldn't have. I got really annoyed and cranky towards the end of the night, and almost let my hunger impulses get to me. Heres what happened: I wanted to eat..I went to my evening class got out at 8pm and thought I wanted to just do it...and eat. I went to Sonic because I was thinking I would just get their chicken wrap. I pulled in, and quickly pulled out. GOOD HUH? I was happy yea. But im just frustrated at how hard this can be sometimes. But I didn't let it get the best of me. I knew I would regret taking that first bite. Ive been doing so well not having any dinner or breakfast, just lunch. Im on day 9 of this task. I don't want to quit or give up. When I feel my curves and my body, and how much of a difference those few days have made, it just makes it all worthwhile. I like my body in the way I am shaped, but of course, I could use to lose weight and be thin. So...im okay now, after writting this. It feels good to read my own insight. And have you guys understand. Im not sure 5lbs by sunday will even work. But I will surely try. You can only hope for the best. Staying strong is my task at hand. Food sucks! blah! Nite. |
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| The start of Monday.... |
[Jan. 14th, 2008|10:41 pm] |
Well I did okay today, except for the fact that my lunch had tons of calories. But I was hungry and let it get to me. BUT...I managed to just have lunch and nothing else. I drank a V8 for dinner, to smooth out my hunger. I did well in not letting the hunger pains get to me. Im so happy with the control I have for not over indulging at night. That was a big issue with me. So I plan or I hope to lose 5 more lbs by the end of this week. CHALLENGE! Who else is in?
Mina |
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| CW STATS & GOALS |
[Jan. 13th, 2008|10:52 pm] |
CW: 150
Height: 5'4
1st GW: 140
2nd GW: 130
3rd GW: 120
4th GW: 110 |
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| The real deal |
[Jan. 13th, 2008|08:31 pm] |
So...i'm back. It's been a while, but things happen sometimes that you get to a certain point in your life where sometimes you give up on yourself. What's the real reason we do the things we do in our lives? Theirs always a plot to every story. I know why Im back, and you know why your reading this. Because we all relate to each other in one aspect. OUR BODIES! OUR HAPPINESS! OUR WAY OF LIFE! So...Im here, Im ready, and willing. Im on day 6 of one meal a day plan. NO DINNER, NO BREAKFAST, just lunch. Im winding myself down to scarf nothing. Im trying to work on my caffeine intake, RED BULL is my vice. Thank god coffee only has 10 cals per cup. I hope this time around, I get to chat with some great people that understand my pain, fears, and desires.
Please...I need you! Those who know, why were here.
Love to here more comments and replies.
Any new plans out there??? Let me know!
p.s. I found a great website. AN ED UNIVERSITY! Let me know if your interested in finding out about it. ITS AMAZING!
This should keep you enticed.
winks~Mina. |
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| IM BACK! |
[Jan. 13th, 2008|08:09 pm] |
Stronger than ever...more to come.
BUT IM BACK!!!! |
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| For today! |
[Apr. 16th, 2007|08:33 am] |
Hi everyone!
So for today I plan on really sticking to my plan. I hate failure.I hate being a failure. I have been doing awesome working out. Now time to focus on not getting food in my mouth. Its harder then it sounds. Lets focus on less. Less is better. Resizing our stomaches. I plan to work on it at least. Hope you all do too!!!
Love,
Jasmina |
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| Exercising now |
[Mar. 27th, 2007|10:20 am] |
So I went to exercise last night at 830pm even though it was raining. Im so proud of myself. YAY! I got the urge that I needed so badly. Im going again tonight. Im going to continue this day by day. Summer is on its way and I need at least a bikini body if not thin and bones. Sexy is my goal and being thin will be my success.
CW: 140
GW: 130
I hope to get my GW in for this new month. Good luck to all who are struggling and trying so hard to be perfect and ideal.
Love,
TheFatGirl28 |
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| Tuesdays suck |
[Mar. 14th, 2007|12:46 pm] |
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Did I mention that? and im in so much pain. I took a laxative last night for eating all that shit. and now i have major cramps.
Gawd I hate this.
I hope everyone else is better.
Mina |
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| Another day... |
[Mar. 13th, 2007|09:48 am] |
so today Ive decided to start this page. I used to have one on myspace but decided to delete it b/c of issues with friends finding out. I have been doing shitty with my dieting and eating habits. I fucking hate myself. I looked in the mirror just the other night and I circled all the major issues I have with my body. FAT!! Is all I could describe to myself.
So over the weekend; I pretty much wasted myself on binging. I hate it. It sucks and theirs no excuse. So I bought laxatives and took one last night. I did my business this morning and felt 2lbs lighter. Thats better then nothing.
Im hungry right now; but I wont give in. Coffee and cigarettes during my workday. Thats not such a bad plan. I know myself, and starvation is so hard. So I figure I need to work my way to this goal. I brought a light lunch today with an apple and a diet rite.
I just know I need to focus on me and not let food get the best of me. I have to try...harder.
Till next time~mina. |
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| New User (EDs only) |
[Mar. 13th, 2007|09:28 am] |
Just wanted to introduce myself to everyone. Im new to this; and interested in journaling my life with EDs. Im struggling for my ideal weight, going through my ups and downs with my weight. I hope to gain support and encouragement. Im here if anyone needs me.
ANA/MIA for life~Stay strong~Thin thin.
mina |
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